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Update...well I'm mostly on Facebook and after deleting my myspace account. I'm back on it. I have been on a serious rollercoaster ride for the last year and a half. And even though I'm still going thru a lot at this moment. I have been blessed with a beautiful and healthy baby boy. Yes you heard right a son. A little baby boy! He is so Scrumptious and yes I am doing it on my own. I did not want or plan it to be like that but at the moment we are better that way.

I have to add pictures. I miss all my friends.

I will survive by Gloria Gaynor. I'm sure this is a popular song for many! But I am a survivor! I have been through so much in my life. I am grateful for the experiences now. I'm sure when I was going through it I felt like I couldn't make it and when I felt hope was completely gone I notice that I had weathered the storm and I'm here. I'm still standing amongst the living. I was beaten but not broken. Someone asked me a few days ago would I change anything, sure I would love to change a few things who wouldn't but I am proud of who I am today! And without those experiences I wouldn't be me and I have learn so much from all my experiences. You can take away my loved ones, turn your back on me, break my heart, fool me, and you can hate me but baby I'm going to Survive!

It's sad to see the "Ex" finally realizing that she messed up badly. What's worse she dragged another person into her world of chaos and still continues to drag her knowing that she doesn't want to be with her. The Ex broke down and wanted to confess her love for me so she deicides to tell her current g/f of only 5months that she is still in love with me. Boy does this bring back memories....do you remember nighteyes_70. Well I told the Ex that she can not continue hurting people for her selfish greed and needs. Basically she is still lingering that girl on because thats her ride back and forth. I get this poem and text saying that she is "mentally in love with me" lol...I told her what the heck is that suppose to mean. She says I stimulate her mind and keep her learning. That her current g/f does not stimulate her at all and that they are on extrememly different levels.

I don't wish wrong on no one; although yes i wanted her to pay for all the hurt she has caused me but i knew karma would return the favor. But i honestly wanted her to find happiness because she is so lost and she really doesn't know who she is. And although she is funny and outgoing it stops there. But now she is depressed and wants to come back but of course on her conditions. Little does she know that she is four months to late.

I realized that I can not save her, she has to find her way. I know that she does love me for reasons that really can not hold an intimate relationship. She will always have a place in my heart, but just like her and her current g/f on extrememly different levels as she stated. I am sitting at a higher level that I doubt she can catch up too. And that's not to sound so harsh. But being alone is when I was able to grow and all though this growth spurt is a little painful i'd rather endure it
and be bigger and better for it in the future.

I am content!

Today I was feeling good about myself and I realized that I'm in a place that I like. I found that I am comfortable with my surroundings and no its not where I ultimately at the end where I want to forever be but I'm okay for now. I have gotten accustomed doing and being on my own. And now that I am bringing new people into my circle i realized how far I have come. Seven months ago I was left in a state of extreme hurt and pain. And now i see how much i have learned and grown in strength. I pat myself on the back because I can walk with my head held high I came in as a lady and left as a lady! I realized that I have to respect and learn from all my failed relationships because they are stepping stones for my successful relationship that will one day arrive. I am staying positive and moving forward and I can only depend on myself!

Well i'm chilling at Starbucks drinking 2pumps Vanilla doppio espresso, checking email, online homework assignment and LJ. Realizing that I'm not accomplishing one damn thing I set to do this evening. So whatever. I had to come home early so that the handy man can come over to do some repairs in the apartment. So whatever I'm bumming it out doing the coffee house thang! I had a little slip this weekend I went to visit Shante and I think that was a mistake on my part. Fool me once shame on her fool me twice shame on me, rule totally applied to me I should have known better than to put myself in that situation to get hurt. But I'm still not over the relationship. Love is not a switch you can turn off even if it is love that is not healthy. So I'm sitting back and really evaluating the situation to the fullest.


I'm headed home to Miami for thanksgiving weekend and I can not wait, I need a little R+R with the family down home and my lovely princess.

Well...i'm signing off...

Well I'm trying to figure out which show I want to fall this season. I know for a fact that Cane is going to be the one I have to see! But I watched Grey's Anatomy season premier it was a littly tear jerker. But the second show on ER is off the chain. I forgot how much I was in love with John Stamos when is was 14. Well I'm going to say goodnight.

I got a laptop and I am totally excited to be back surfing, journaling and buying merchandise Ebay in the comfort of my bed! mY little toy. There has been lots of things that has happen with in the past 6 months and everyday I'm trying to push forward. I don't know where my relationship is going if shante and i are together or not she has distance herself completely and it has been worse since my last visit to bowling green which was 10 days ago. I have been completely disillusion by our relationship. Meanwhile I'm here by myself working and coping.

My girl went to Nashville to audition for "Deal or no Deal" she is so freaking crazy because she only watch the show like two times and really doesn't how it works LMAO and but she went to tryout was able to make a spot and they said they will call people if they are selected so cross your fingers for her but I think she did more than anything to be on the news so tune in to your local channels and see if you catch her showing out! LOL...bye

I can't sleep I have been working 18 hour days and this week I'm graduating to be honest I really didn't want to walk because I just felt I would walk when I get my B.S. but hell shante wanted me to walk with her and now my nerves are getting to me and I am bit excited about the commencement and nighteyes_70 you and the crew are invited Friday May 4 at 7pm at the convention. Now time has really been counting down and we are moving at the end of this month and so we are now packing the semi-essentials. Which is rough for me cause queen has to look good everyday but i can't if the shit is packed! Well I love ya like some play cousins but i'm headed to get my read on hopefully that will knock me out!

Alright, you just have to forgive me period. It has been what forever since i post. To be honest I don't even get on myspace that much either but perhaps one or two times a week to check for birthdays and comments. School has really been keeping me busy.

IT'S OFFICIAL we are moving to Bowling Green we both got accepted to Western !Go Hilltoppers! We got approved for our townhouse. And *deep breath in* we graduate May 4 from HCC after graduation that night we will be headed to El Braco's for continued celebration. I'm totally exicited to move. I just realized we got a lot of shit sold most of it and I even sold my blackberry on eBay it was for the greater good...but for real the extra fee was killing my rate plan.

I haven't forgot about all the lovely LJ clan. I hope you didn't forget about me. Much love to all. We are planning a big ass party before we leave so I will have to post on the yahoo for all "the Important people"...aha ha ha..Muah

Lately I having been requiring to feed my need of materials things...what can i say i'm a material girl...i love shopping and lately i have been fighting the urge to splurge...I know the value of saving a buck but i'm tired of being that frugal shopper I just want to go into the store and point at that VVS stone and say thats what i want put it in a purity bag THANK YOU! I want to be driven...Man I know its sort of bad to be that I WANT kind of person but lately it seems to have taken control of my thoughts and senses... I must have caught the wannabug from somewhere or someone...has anybody else caught wind of it??

Hey ya!! Im trying to read everyone's journal to catch up! Ive been mad busy and tired of being tired! I have 11 credits left to get the hell out of here!!! Yeah me...I'm ready to move on so i've been ready like yesterday.

I just want you to know I miss you guys!

You Are Most Like Charlotte!

You are the ultimate romantic idealist You've been hurt before, but that hasn't caused you to give up on love. If anything, your resolve to fall in love is stronger than ever. And it's this feminine optimism that men find most appealing about you. Romantic prediction: That guy you are seeing (or crushing on)? Could be very serious - if you play your cards right!

I played tourist when i went to Orlando... we had a blast we went to Universal almost everday. We also wine and dine with Cinderella at The Grand Floridan Resort. We stood in a lovely spacious 4 bedroom condo. I really enjoyed myself I felt like a kid all over again...oh yeah the kids had fun too...now that i am back i am bored to death One week in Florida is not enough...so i am going back but i am staying for two weeks and if it wasn't for school i would stay longer. For all those on myspace check it out my pics...Muah

Okay okay I am a myspace junkie...i will get help one day just not today. Monday I am off to Florida to enjoy a fun filled week of rollercoaster rides, junk food, running around in the hot sun, dehydration bring it on baby! Magickalmom i loved the text you were hot that night!

Man this lunch was Yummy and no for all the filthy minds out there I had chinese okay...but there is this place on riverside where the old O'charly's was now its called New China man I love their peach chicken yummy and their chocolate cake so good *unbuttoning my pants wait no...thought I had to fart haaaa.....* (just playing you know you do it too) Anyways I am tripping how long does it take for a teacher to post my GRADE gosh the nerve of some people, I got up this I have been waiting for my grades I had to wait on Shante b/c she just got this new calculator and doesn't know what to do with it so she had to call the generic brand of geek squad, then i had to wait to get my haircut even though i had an appointment I just sat there and waited for 20 minutes when shante came out from getting her eyebrows wax; man i was pissed they offered me the services for free i told them to hold it and when i am ready i will give them a call...then i went out to eat and still had to wait...Someone was really testing my patience button all day today but now that my belly is happy and I am feeling sleeping everyone will just have to wait on me now cause i am going to bed later players....zzzzzzzzzz

Well, I am feeling so relieved my classes are so over this semester...yeah me...I am taking the summer off shante wants me to take a class with her but I am not feeling it this summer I just want to relax enjoy the sun. My baby girl will be here with me for the entire summer so I want to spend all the time I can with her. And, like I said before I am getting back into the swing of doing massages I have been preparing my body so that i may work on others I had to retrain the muscles in my hand they were beginning to wear out on me after 30 minutes so for all those lovely people who are waiting patiently, the wait will be worth it. Yes nighteyes_70 I do need the help it seems like your page is so awesome and well mine looks like crap...Do I have to chose the layouts lj offers or could i get a code? Well check ya sexy people out later! MUahzzzzzzzzzz Girls night out is coming soon so get ready!

I downloaded new pics check'em out BAby

Blue Tequila it was Yummy it made me feel so nice ^^ I danced my ass off this weekend and gained a blister on my left foot...I forgot this week at school was hectic so I had to stay off the internet for personals and keep my ass straight in the books now that I took my exam...pheww I can update...nighteyes_70 is the one who introduce me to lj so if u read this I need HELP working it thank you but anyways I think this weekend i am going to get blasted again and add extra naughtiness to the shot as well...Muah to all

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.